not much is happening in my world. I had my one-on-one Friday, and Jennifer said I was refreshing. Supposedly I have no drama in my life, which is good but not entirely true. Hell month is starting, and I’m not very stressed. That worries me a little…HA! Some guy drama that I thought was over has reintroduced itself; I thought I called it quits with that situation…apparently I misinterpreted that.
Lent started, and I decided to do something a little different this year. I’ve always thought Lent was cool, andI’ve done it because I thought it would make me look spiritual. (Wow, look at me admitting that-I’m making osme serious progress here.) So Jesus called me out on that my senior year of high school, and I haven’t done it since. I’ve been waiting until I can do it with the right heart. Well, apparently this year was the year. Jesus moved on my heart to go for it. It took me FOREVER to figure out what to give up. I searched my heart for a long time, and I decided to choose the thing in my life that is battling God for the #1 position in my life-you know what I’m talking about. And, well, it seems kind of trivial, but I did it. Then I decided to keep it to myself for the whole 40 days.
Jesus has really been breaking me of myself through it. I have been forced to take a lot more risks, and I am initiating more, and it’s just really good. The other day I was doing the dishes and just talking to Jesus about my grades, and I was telling Him I just didn’t know what else to do. I’m not going to kill myself for that 3.8 because who I am isn’t in my grades. But at the same time, I want to perform well. The Bible does say to study to show yourself approved; it also says to do everything as unto the Lord. So do you wanna know what he said? He said, “Don’t worry about it. Use your time diligently, and then go have some fun. You do your part, and I’ll do mine. You are going to be just fine this semester.” I was talking to my future roomie about it this morning, and she reminded me that it’s so great to get God’s opinion on stuff. Things are so much bigger when we do. My grades are not the most important thing. Loving Jesus and loving people are the most important thing. I think that through Lent, the Lord is giving me a better idea of His perspective. And let me tell you, it is so peaceful and exciting and REFRESHING! Jesus has also completely transformed my devotion time, and it is SO good! I love it! So I am excited for whatever else is in store in the next 34 1/2 days. I just know it’s going to be good.
In other news, my dad is headed back overseas soon, I signed with my new roommate today, and it is time for me to head to office hours. Well, until next time, may Jesus continue to lavish you with His ridiculous and unconditional love 
