so last night was a girls’ night! it was SO fun…something Ithink I really needed. I’ve been feeling like I don’t belong, and I’ve been questioning God a lot about having me move to NC. It has been a really hard transition. On several occasions in the past week, the Lord has just really arrested my heart and challenged me to get more outside of my comfort zone…initiate more with people. That’s been something I have been struggling with lately. I have strongly wanted community, and it’s been harder than I thought to gain it. I kept looking back on my time in Tacoma and thinking about how fun it was. Jesus reminded me that although it was fun, it was not easy by any stretch of the imagination, especially my first semester in college. It took me a couple of months to really make friends and get involved. I seemed to have forgotten that. While this transition was harder than that one, I am starting to see the beauty in it. I have been surrounded by amazing, beautiful women who absolutely LOVE Jesus. They are so much fun! We’ve been talking a lot lately about spending more time together and strengthening out community. Apparently Lerryn and I aren’t the only ones who feel lonely in a sea of thousands of people.
So in order to promote this, yesterday we had a girls’ night. It was really interesting. Everyone there was associated with Chi Alpha, but I can’t say I really knew everyone. I got to spend time with people I never spend time with. I got to build my relationship with my possible new roomie. Heck, I am even go to the UNC vs. Clemson game on Sunday now! How fun is that? We just ate tons of junk food (which we usually never do on our own), we watched Jesus Culture on youtube, and we had a dance party for like 2 hours. Then Lindsay brought me home at like 2 and we sat in her car and had this really amazing cinversation. I just felt like it was a really great time of initiation for me. I got to just get out there and be me. and it was AWESOME!
One area that is still really hard for me, though, music. I still don’t really have a place to sing, and I am afraid my voice is gonna start getting weak. I will admit, I am vain. I have a beautiful voice, and I want to use it…to worship God, to have fun, and to take care of it. I know it sounds really prideful, and it probably is, but I don’t want to lose it….so i’ll have to be praying about that one. In the mean time, if you are looking for some awesome entertainment, check out this guy:
